2012 is going to be a great year!

How do I know this you ask? Because I am still in my "life is full of possiblities" high from New Years Eve, but I can tell you that I really do belive this year will be my best yet.

Reason why this year is going to be awesome #1: Mr. A and I will be buying a house this year!

We are meeting with a mortgage broker next week to get pre-approved. We have asked our good friend Molly to be our Realtor. We went and looked at some houses from the street and picked out some neighborhoods we love on New Years day with the family. I just can't wait to get started on the hunt. I am so over apartment living.

We are going to be looking in the 78757 area of Austin, as well as south west and north west Austin. Milwood has been surprising to us and we have already found a house we love in the neighborhood. Oh boy! 

Reason #2: Many babies to be born... Not ours (yet)!

We have been blessed with a Niece and two Nephews and being and Aunt and Uncle is so much fun. This year is the first year our FRIENDS are having little ones and it is going to be awesome. Kelly, is due in March and Sarah (our great friend from Philadelphia) is due at the end of this month!!!! So much fun. We have several other friends pregnant as well. It is just going to a baby-full year! Can't wait for this new transition in all of our lives. Should be interesting.

Reason #3: Travel

Mr. A and I are planning trips to Philadelphia, and Alaska this year. We can't wait to visit friends and family and get out of Austin for a bit. This of course is all contingent on the home buying process.

Reason #4: We are debt free!

This year Mr. A and I are totally debt free. We only have my student loans to repay and I don't count those because they ultimately make me money as well. It is a great feeling to not worry about credit cards, car payments and everything else.

Reason #5: See reason #1!!!!!

WE ARE BUYING A HOUSE!!!!!!!! OMG! I can't wait.

Happy New Year to you all! Here is to a great year and a lot of fun!

I am not even in and they are going to kick me out!

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For those of you that don't know I am a provisional member of the Junior League of Austin this year. I am super excited about joining the league and feel great about all of the good things Iw ill be doing for the community through the league.

Also, for those of you that have not guessed, I was NOT in a sorority in college. Just was not something I did. I was never told about how cut throat women can be about volunteering.

These two things have been huge pains in my ass the last few weeks and here is why. In your provisional year you are givin a project to work on. In Austin it is called FIT - Food In Tummies. The program conssists of shifts packing backpacks of food for kids in the Del Valle ISD and then delivering them on Friday mornings. Those kids get t bring them home and have healthy food for the weekend. It is a great idea for sure. The issue is these girls who have been trained by thier sororities to be over achivers and stalk the website for all the best shift sign ups. They steal them all and then people like me who had no idea how "hard core" this all was gets stuck with only 6 out of my required 27 shifts!!!! Seriously.

So now I am freaking out. I am going to be kicked out before I even get in. What was I thinking!? Kate Middleton would never have these types of issues would she?

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Confession...

I went to the Katy Perry concert with the girls this weekend. I have had "Peacock" on repeat since then....

You tube it now.

I know I am late to the "Party", get off my back.

In my last post I said I was going to post about the royal wedding. I really had planned a huge post about the food I cooked and the drinks we drank and my friend's colorful opinions of all of the hats. But I just never got there. Last week seemed to fly by and then this weekend was like, POOF! So I will give the abbreviated version for you all.

Let me start by saying as a little girl I honestly dreamt of marrying William. I really had this whole idea that because I was part English I could totally marry him. His birthday is the day after mine, but he is just a year older than me. I would look to see what schools he was going to so I could apply to them. I totally looked into St. Andrews and totally would have gone if I could have. Then history would have been different. Kate for sure stole my idea. That B. But now I am in love with Kate too. So I have gotten over my rage of not landing the prince and decided to celebrate their marriage.

By now you have seen THE DRESS. All I can say is WOW. She looked amazing. Every part of the look was spot on. I am so glad I did not get married after her because I would have totally tried to copy her veil, dress and whole lookand it would have totally cost me a lot of money.

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 Then there were all the cute moments, that really brought the wedding down to a level that we could all relate too. I loved that they were not robots, that you could tell how much they were in love. I loved that Harry took a peak at her before his brother. How cute was it that William joked with her dad at the alter? All of it made you realize this was not just a royal wedding, but a wedding of two people really in love.

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I loved the kiss, and I totally love again how real the moment was. Kate even said "Oh WOW!" as she walked out on the balcony. I thought it was so sweet to see both sets of parents taking in the moment off to the side. Charles even seems like a warm person, holding up Camilla's grandchild so he could see. Just so sweet.

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 Most of all I thought it was so cool of them that they drove off in a car together, just like normal newlyweds! Never mind that it was a rare Ashton Martin that is worth more than most houses, and they were driving from one palace to another palace... it was still so cute!

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I will finish with my normal craziness. I am totally convinced that if Mr.A and I moved to Anglesey and we ran into Wills and Kate at the market we could totally be friends. I imagine Kate inviting me over for a glass of wine and a chat. We would totally hang out. I know it. In the mean time I will continue to obsess about everything that Kate wears and grow my hair out just like her. She would not find that weird at all when she met me at the market, would she?

I am totally obsessed

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With the Royal wedding just a few hours away I am finally going to come out and say it. I am totally obsessed! My job is mainly about serious stuff and I just never get to have "fun". Its the path I have chosen and for the most part I really love what I do. BUT that being said I am totally in need of some girly fun stuff, and I am obsessing over the royal wedding. I find myself trying to read every article I can about Kate and dreaming of what she must be feeling like. SO much fun!!! As a recent bride I want to know if even on the scale of her wedding if she is just super excited to see William on the big day. I wonder if he knows what her dress is going to look like. I wonder if she has had that last single girl kiss. Ahhh I just love it all!

Also, I am kind of tired of people judging her for being too skinny and saying she is not a good roll model. First of all if I were getting married in front of a billion people I would be a freaking skeleton. I would be so effing skinny for fear that some photographer would somehow get a picture of cellulite (not that she has much to begin with). But gosh damn give the girl a break! Every bride is too skinny. She is just under about a billion times more pressure!

Last ranting point, I am SOOOOO over people being too cool for the wedding and being all, "I don't care", whatever you people. Lighten up. It is all in good fun and what little girl my age has not dreamed of marring Prince William? I remember thinking because I was half English I had a better shot. I even remember looking into what college he was going to go to so I too could go there and meet him. Guess Kate had the same plan! But whatever, lighten up people. I love love!

Plus I just DYING to see her dress!!!! Congrats to the happy couple!

Confession - I'm Like a Bird

I need to nest.

Lately I have been fighting off the uncontrollable urge to nest. It first started with a project of organizing our photo albums. I really wanted to pair them down and get them organized more. My mom recently sent me a bunch for stuff and I wanted to make room for some of it and then get rid of some of it. I don't need all of my report cards from my childhood that remind me of how horrible of a speller I am, I have this blog.

Anyway, from there it blossomed into me reading new decorating blogs my favorite is Young House Love, I want their whole house, no joke. I have now thinking about making some changes to the house. I desperatly want to do our porch and buy some outdoor furniture maybe even do some plants and stuff. But then I realize I live in an apartment and it might not be wise to buy all that stuff if this is a teporary location.

I then decided I wanted a new bed and bedroom fruiniture. I looked into the prices of new matress sets and thought I would take advantage of the recent Presitdent's Day sales. Well turns out a lot of those are a crock of you know what and I decided against this. Although I am stilly dying for a new bed.

So we wind up at this conclusion, I want to nest. I desperately want to buy a house to nest in. I am in love with a house and it is perfect in every way. I want to buy it and nest in it and do all of the above projects mentioned in it. So without further waiting I give you the house I secretly (not so secretly) love but know I will never be able to buy right now due to many reasons.

 

Can you believe this baby's room? I am dying.

 This house even has a  totally adorable "project" room. COME ON! If you want to see the full thing go here. Mr. A and I drove by it this weekend. I was hoping the neighborhood would be bad and I would hate it, but NOOOO it was cute and up and coming. Dammit.

So you ask why can't we buy this house? Well that can of worms is for another day. I am hoping putting this out there in the universe will help me process it and let it go. I. WANT. THIS. HOUSE. I will one day have a house just like this one. Right? NBD and I should just let it go. Right? No need to go get pre-qualified for a mortgage Right? No need to call a REALTOR . Right?

Confession

I realize I have not been posting here that much lately. Mainly because I have been super busy like the rest of you. I had my surgery last week and my foot is still killing me. I am happy I did the surgery but it is finally starting to set in that I will be unable to workout for like 2 months and I really miss it. I never knew how fast I would feel flabby and out of shape.

I have gained 3 pounds since the surgery, I blame my MIL's cooking and the holidays. But I am really concerned about getting fat again. I need some support and some Weight Watchers buddies to help me get back on track. I have two weddings I am in this year and I want to look fabulous for them, if anything, so I don't look like a fatty next to the beautiful brides! (Not that anyone cares what I would look like anyway)

In the mean time I also have to confess that I may have a slight addiction to my pain meds. I take one get drunk in about 5 minutes take a nap in about 40 and then feel great for 5 hours! Way easier than getting drunk. Way less calories, and I don't get a hangover! HMMM maybe I should stop taking these pills soon....

Confession - Don't Judge Me

I know now that my wedding dress already does not zip and/or button all the way up. I have been married for just over 65 days. I am very sad about this. I am going back to the gym tomorrow. I am sad and now I am fat.  Weird thing is I have not really gained much weight, guess I am just out of shape already.

PS - Don't ask me how I know my wedding dress does not fit. It is not like I put it on tonight while Mr. A was out of town and danced around in my living room alone. I totally did not do anything like that. That would be super weird of me. 

PPS - I am hoping this issue is really caused by the fact I am not double jointed and putting my wedding dress alone does not really work. I have like three layers of buttons and hooks on that thing. Yea that is why it does not fit, not because I am getting fat. Dammit. 

Confession Monday

This weekend I headed to Houston to hang out with my niece and nephew for Halloween. While watching them my niece told me she did not want me to play with her several times and chose Mr. A over me. She told me to leave and would not give me hugs or kisses. She seems to hate me because I discipline her sometimes. I was so hurt by this that I had to go to my room and hide because I was so embarrassed and sad I teared up. Is it sad that a three year old can hurt my feelings?

Confession Monday

This weekend my sister and her family came to visit Mr. A and I. We hung out and did lots of fun family stuff! 

Here is my confession. 

On Sunday at breakfast my 3 year old niece and I were coloring "Belle" from Beauty and the Beast. Well everyone knows her dress is gold. So I started to color it in the lines like a good girl. Meanwhile, my niece took a green marker and colored right in the middle of her perfect golden dress. I may have, just maybe, had a huge twinge of OCD rage and maybe asked her why she would do something like that and ruin her dress. My husband noticed this and laughed at me telling my niece to keep coloring it that way just to make me more mad. 

Am I going to be a bad mom because I can't let my niece color the way she wants to? Oh boy. Hope you all had a great weekend. 

Confession Monday

My friend Kelly used to do this. I am going to rip it off.

This weekend was deemed "Fuck Up" weekend in my house. My wonderful loving husband (I say this with a pinch of sarcasm) and I realized that everything I did this weekend I effed up. Seriously everything.

Friday I ordered pei wei for movie night. I ordered the wrong thing and although it was not a huge deal it cost us some extra bucks. I also figured out I bought the entirely wrong lunch meals for Mr. A for the next week for work, i actually bought everything he hates. I suck as a wife.

Saturday I hosted a dinner party at my house. Luckily my friends are nice because I effed up dinner repeatedly. Did not know the ice cream maker took 24 hours to freeze, fail. I did not read the directions and the lasagna may have been missing a few key flavors. I did not know that the sauce was supposed to simmer for two hours. So I drank my eff ups away and felt a bit better.

The moral of the story? There is none. I am a fuck up and I just fucked that up cause there was no point to the story.

The Cookie Dream

Last night I had one of the strangest dreams I have had in a while. Let me begin by telling you a bit of background. My ex and I were never right from the start. He used me and abused me seven ways to Sunday. Including having me as his back up girlfriend when he had a girlfriend in the public eye. Totally horrible situation and it ended very abruptly. I actually finally cut ties with the guy the same weekend that I met my wonderful future husband. All in all it was not ideal and I never totally dealt with the way he treated me.

Well every once in a while he pops up in a dream. Last night my dream went like this. I had made my famous chocolate chip cookie bars that I love to make and had just pulled them out of the oven. WF came in and lovingly took a slice from the end of the casserole dish the way you are supposed to cut into it and told me he loved me and left. Ex BF comes in and starts his normal ways of schmoozing me and flirting with me. I felt guilty for appeasing him but told him he could have a cookie bar if he wanted one. He proceeded to cut into the dish right in the middle. Taking a huge piece out (which we all know the middle cookies are the best part) and chomping away. For some reason (who knows why really) I told him it would taste better if he poured hot coffee on the cookie while he ate it but not to let it get cold because then it would be gross. He then took the whole pot of coffee and poured it all the rest of the cookies, ruining them for me and for but most of all for WF. I was so upset because WF just took his part and loved it and did not mess with the rest, saving it for later. WTF is that? He then sat there and acted like nothing wrong. I yelled at him and told him he ruined everything and he just continued to sit there like he did nothing.

I told WF about this dream because I felt so guilty about having it. He then started to analyze it. He came up with the idea that I think the EX BF ruins everything and if I ever let him back into my life I would be opening myself up to that. I came to the conclusion that I am the cookie. WF just took part and respected the rest and loved it. The EX BF took the best part of it and ruined it for WF. I am always effed up, and he did this to me.

What do you think ladies?

I am too old for this crap

Last night WF and I headed to the Alamo Draft House to go see Iron Man 2. The only catch was it was at midnight and I had already shared a bottle of prosecco with Kelly at CRU. I was ready for freaking bed at about 9pm. So what do you do when you are tired and must make it through a 2 hour movie in the dark after you drink too much? You drink a bit more and shove your face full of food. So after about an hour of waiting for the movie to start in addition to the two hour movie and 3 million calories I consumed (2 beers, potato skins, the smoky and the bacon and fries, and a $5 milkshake that was heaven in the glass, all totally worth it) I went home and passed out. I am so freaking tired today I could cry.

For those that are interested the movie was awesome. Totally worth going to see. Maybe not a midnight but still. Seriously. I am too old for this crap. I love WF but next time he can go to the midnight showing with his friends.UGH!

Confession

I just ate a really healthy asparagus soup with whole wheat toast for dinner. To reward myself I thought, I will have a treat for dessert. I made my self some hot coco thinking, "I was so good today, I want something sweet". I then proceeded to eat half a bag of marshmallows with it. Counter productive? I think so.

I am now going to throw up... Weight Watchers FAIL.

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I am green with envy:

I read this girls blog and think, "My God woman!" She her husband and her parents must be super wealthy. Please check out her blog posting of her Christmas visit to her moms house. Note they have a formal living room tree and what I can tell a "casual" living room tree? It makes me want to be a stay at home mom and have all the time in the world to plan crap out like her and her mom (might I mention and unlimited bank account to go with that stay at home thing too). UGH!  Glamorous Life 

I secretly wish I had been really good about working out and being healthy like Kelly because I am terrified of what I will have to stuff my body in for NYE. I fear I might look like a stuffed sausage in my tart outfit. I wish I had the drive like she does to keep up the working out and cooking she does. Also I heard from my bridal store that my dress will be in next week, AWESOME! But now I am super worried it wont fit and then I will have a break down.

I have secretly not being focused on anything but wedding stuff while at work for the last two days. I have been looking at honeymoon locations and hotels. I have been picking flowers and talking to my officiant about the ceremony. I guess I should include blogging as well. I wish I had the creativity of some of these other brides.

Confession

I may or may not have tried to wear sweatpants leggings to work for the second day in a row. I then decided people might judge and changed last minute.

Good thing I did because today was also the office group picture day and my short ass was put right in the front of the picture. DARNIT!