Wednesday, August 4, 2010

What the hell is going on with me?

This weekend my sister threw one heck of a bachelorette party for me. We had so much fun chatting,relaxing, catching up, and eating! She even had a little surprise lingerie shower for me and lots of other cute games planned. I really had so much fun with all the girls. I really needed the break from reality. I feel even more like this is all getting real.

Well the reason I am writing this post is not to give you all a full recap because as we all know some of that stuff need to stay a bit private! But I do have to mention that I got really sick on Saturday night. I did not think anything of it other than I must have over ate my sister's wonderful cheese ball and nothing else. Sunday I drove home sick and since then have not felt 100%.

Well the pain never really went away and this morning I apparently had a full fledged panic attack. Like, chest pains, shortness of breath, panicking, impending doom, passed out, dizzy kinda stuff. I hid in an office at work and called WF to come get me. Turns out I am a bit more stressed about things going on in my life then I even let myself in on. I was so embarrassed because honestly the wedding is not that big of a deal. I am super excited about getting married and I know I have some amazing friends who will be there will me every step of the way. I can't believe how worried I have gotten in just the last week or so.

Anyway panic attacks are no fun. I don't suggest any of you get this way. I am making a personal apology to my friends who might be dealing with a bit of my crazy right now. I know I am crazy, admitting I have a problem is the first step on the road to recovery right?